This topic is something that I personally have had all too much experience dealing with. Being broken to me brings back painful memories but also is filled beautiful and vulnerable times that I appreciate now that I look back. Just like everything else in life they center completely on God and just like most memories they serve as valuable lessons for our lives.
Broken-ness means different things for different people because everyone has a different breaking point, mine came about 2 years ago around this time of year. Two years ago my dad became diagnosed with the H1N1 flu and nearly lost his life, you have to understand this man was not only my dad but my best friend and superhero, he could do no wrong in my eyes. At the time I was a new christian and I didn’t know what else to do but put all my faith in Him. The entire world felt like it was resting on my shoulders and I felt like everyone else could cry but if I did then all the hope they held would be gone. It was easily the hardest two months of my life. The best word I could use to describe my state at the time was broken, I was alone in an un-familiar city fighting for my dad’s life, brokenness couldn’t even begin to cover it. God eventually healed him physically but to this day we still struggle in so many ways. I can say one thing for certain though, God never left my side through it all. Over and over in my head the same bible verse (which is now my favorite) played in my head.
“Fear not, for I am with you. Be not dismayed for I am your God, I will help you and heal you, i will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10 NLT
The hardest thing to do, especially when you’re a control freak as I am is to let go and just trust God. When you realize that things are completely out of your control the best advice I can give you is to get on your knees and pray. Timothy, a faith follower and proclaimer of the word said this: “But the Lord stood by me and strengthened me”, and I can assure you, God will do the same for you. If we could do everything ourselves why would we need a savior?
He loves our dependence and devotion, it’s one of the things that brings us closer to Him. Constantly pray for God’s help to let go of these urges to control, give your worries and cares up to him, and he will help you! He is there, He is listening, and He wants you to come to him.
“Delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart” – Psalm 37:4 NLT.
When you feel broken, this is the perfect time for God to soften your heart and change you. He delights in our imperfections and only wants our love and devotion. When you have no where else to turn but to him, He takes advantage of that and makes you new.
“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” – Psalm 34:18
I know the saying “Everything happens for a reason” is so overused but in so many cases like this it’s true. What happened with my dad at the time was truly enraging, I couldn’t understand how a man who has never done anything wrong in his life could have this happen to him but now I see why. This experience has brought my family closer, and my family now has a new found faith in Christ that we have never had before. Trials change us; they transform us into better and stronger people. It is tough when it’s happening but the future can be so very bright. Trust in Him and He will always come through on His timing and with His plans. Never forget He always has your best intentions in mind.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11 NLT