Heartbreak. Most of us may or may not have experienced it. But it sucks. You sit down, and you think “why.” Why you’re not good enough, what went wrong, and what you could’ve done better. You sit at home with a series of romantic comedies lined up along with a pint of your favorite ice-cream. However, there is only so much ice-cream, and movies can heal. I had my first heartbreak when I was 15. I know being 15 you don’t know what love is but at the time I felt like I knew what it was.
You know when you’re 15 you just felt like every crush you had was going to be “the one.” I know I did, but this one was different. He was someone who I called my best friend. Whenever we were together, it was always a good time, and we knew how to make each other laugh. It’s your typical high school puppy love relationship. And that’s exactly how I felt like it was as well. Everyone looked at us a “cute couple” maybe even “perfect.” But sooner or later all that went downhill. I was uttered a few words that were hard for me to hear.
When I heard those words, I didn’t think much of it. Or I did, but I didn’t give the reaction that was expected. I gave him one last hug and went back to class. There was still one more period left before school ended so I stayed in the class did my work and waited for the bell to dismiss us. Once the bell rang, I gathered my things and was ready to go home, until one of my best girlfriends came up to me and asked me if I was okay. That’s when I completely lost because I wasn’t okay at all. All these emotions started to come up in me, and I didn’t know what to do or even say. I just knew I wanted to cry. And I did. I cried for days. And even weeks after the incident I still cried.
I remember me and my best girlfriend would always tell each other to never cry over boys. But look where I ended up. Sitting in my room crying over a boy who I really thought was “the one.” And even though I was only 15, I did feel it.
Throughout this heartbreak, I just wanted answers. I wanted to know why and what happened. There wasn’t a day that went by when I thought about those questions. I went from person to person to find some closure. At some point, I even went up to him and asked him why. But, I didn’t get any answers. I wasn’t even acknowledged.
The funny thing is, we weren’t even together for that long. But within the amount of time we were together, I just felt like he was going to be someone in my life for a long time.
But someone told me that, “if it’s meant to be, it will be.” And that has been something that has stayed with me for a long time. A quote that really helped me get over him. I didn’t get any of the answers I wanted, but I was able to find closure for myself.
This happened back in 2012. Now it’s 2018, and I am way past this. I am in a much happier place now than when I was back then. It took me almost two years to get over this. Even though it did take as long as it did, I’m glad I still did. Now I have someone who I feel I can no doubt be with for a long time.